I have realised that I need to work on several areas of my inner self (particularly mental). For example, I was dating three girls at once in July, and the whole time I believed that they had an ulterior motive to do so and would lose "interest" at any point.

I even brought up that I knew one found me ugly when she broke things off the other week which surprised her a lot and she asked me why she would keep seeing me if she did, to which I said that she may have had an ulterior motive. Throughout our time together I was very anxious over her attraction levels too (which again is something I need to work on).

I inevitably handled that particular breakup badly and I even told her about the other girl which she got very upset about. This was silly of me and said in the heat of the moment, so I tried to apologise a few days after but I never heard back. That's that.

However, I have learned that I need to work on many different aspects of my mentality (such as believing that all women find me repulsive, getting anxious over someone's attraction and that they'll always find someone better anyway).

What resources do people recommend do combat these types of thoughts?

I was considering taking six months off (the apps at least).