I've left the seduction community again and again, swearing never to return, each time driven away by how singular it seems to make me lose friends, hurt girls, and hurt myself. Yet each time I'm drawing back like a moth to the flame, like a smoker to that pack he just tossed away, and now lingers just out of sight it's faint waft of cigarette like a perfume in the air.

I've spent countless nights sarging in clubs, on the streets, I've approached close to a thousand women in person now. And at various times at my life, colleagues and not so close friends have called me 'shifty', 'shadey', not to be trusted. I'm just not seeing the big picture here. I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to tell a lie, but I just want to sleep with alot of hot girls. Of course, being an average looking, 5'7, making 70k a year Asian dude, with a small social circle, there is nothing that stands out about me and grabs the attention of my beautiful blonde and blue eyed belles to make them dash into my hands. So I join clubs, I build my social circle, I work out, I develop myself, I work on my emotional game, all with the end goal of one day sleeping with her, my beauty. And all my travels and raves and hobbies have earned me is some short conversation pieces, the occasional feel good confidence that comes and goes, and the tagline of 'shfity', 'shadey' dude. Yes, you're absolutely right, the bro I talk to at a meetup. I'm only here to meet a hot girl in a social envrionment, I have no interest jamming a guitar with you. I'm sorry. And yes, gorgeous girl I've just had a 45 minute conversation with, I'm not trying to be your friend or discuss whatever we're discussing. I dream of slipping into your panties. Of course, I know exactly what the seddit gurus would say: "You place girls too high! You gotta enjoy the hobbies for their own sakes! You gotta have a life first" Well why am I even here on seddit then? Why am I even part of the seduction community if not to learn to seduce? Just as the athlete places his sport first in his life, I place seduction first in my life.
Can you imagine if i joined a competitive fitness forum, and when explaining how important fitness was to me and asking for advice on how to become more fit, having the gurus say: 'listen bro, you're placing health and fitness too high. Just enjoy your life and be active and the fitness will come!"

I just don't get it. I want to seduce these hot girls so bad. More than anything else I want in life (and yes, I do want alot of others things too). This is my most important goal in life. And don't lie, I've had over 25 wingman from the community and I daresay the vast majority of them feel the same way. But why is it I just end up being shifty, untrustworthy, burnt out and exhausted like a candle left lit too long - lacking real friends or connections, my life peppered full of 'shifty' fake conversations which litter like infinite stepping stones to the hot girl I will never sleep with.