One girl I had one night stand with just said to me she fantasises about having 2 guys. I dont know what the fuck is wrong with me, but these things actually hurt me like physically I feel pain, chest pain and stuff. I just want to feel special to a girl, being exceptional to her. When I learn about women sexual history its the same, deep down I just want to feel special somehow to a girl, if I imagine her with someone else or like here with 2 fckin guys I'm loosing it.

It is so hypocrite though why the fck I feel like this, when I myself want to be a fuckboy and sleep with as many women as I can and text the same stuff to multiple of them, wouldnt mind threesome as well. I am the same and it still hurts me so much that she would like to do that as well, what the fck is wrong with me guys. I just want to get rid of this sensual shit, I dont feel like fckin man, fcking alpha... its coming from within I cant control it ... how do u cope with women sexuality.