I feel like I need to bounce my thoughts off someone and you all tend to be very honest and helpful.

I have struggled with depression and anxiety on and off over the year. I’ve done lots of emotional work and I cope better than I have in a long time. However covid really made coping difficult and I decided to start taking an SSRI with the advice of my doctor. It was under the idea of being temporary per the circumstances.

Things settled way down and I felt (with doctor’s guidance) that it was time to go back off. I have trepidation regarding being on meds like that long term.

However now the anxiety has flared way back up. Most of it feels like overwhelm. Like there’s just too much for me to handle. Between raising kids, homeschooling, a marriage that is sometimes going well (more often than not well it isn’t going well), working part time, managing the housenot sleeping well, PT appointments

In many ways I realize while I’m working on weight loss that I avoid uncomfortable feelings. Instead of confronting them I eat them. Which I’m working on not doing. So I’m stuck with these uncomfortable feelings. And I feel very stuck. Like I’ve made the choices I’ve made and I have to deal with them.

In many ways I’m thinking going back on the meds will help. But then I’m not confronting the issues at hand that are causing the discomfort- I’m again avoiding them by taking a medication that eases the feeling.

Anyway - any insight or thoughts would be welcome :)