Down the last few weeks. Still trying to find the courage or determine the best path forward, work it out or move on. This morning our 5yr was a mess, my wife couldn't handle anymore, and lost it. Took it out on me, said some profanity, to which I have some odd looks, and tried to shoo her out of the room to which she replied I'm going to slap you, spelled it so the kid didn't understand. Apologized later saying don't bring it up, don't want to talk about it. To which I replied that's the problem, we never talk about it. She has bipolar and narcissist.

Our sex life is pretty dismal, tonight I asked if we could find some time, she took a pause and said sure. I said it's important to me, and to which she said she had things that are impo to her, acts of Service. All I do is bend to her needs, I shared this and she said she needed more acts. I said there isn't much more I can do. I said when each of our needs are being met then we both get what we want, he reply was that she doesn't see me putting someone else before myself. I literally work all day, come home and spend the rest of the night with her and my daughter. Rarely do anything for myself. I just want to scream, get your shit together or I'm leaving. I don't know how to get thru to her. As I was trying to tell her all this she was trying to shut me up, and I said this is what you do when I try to talk or share my feelings.

Back in April I had an appointment to file and backed off when she apologized for her massive blowout. It's in my post history but not important. I'm just sitting here stewing and wanted to get this off my chest. We're not raising our kid in the right setting. In all my past relationships I drug them out years beyond when I should have and am doing the same thing now. Thanks for listening.