Ever since I became red pilled I lost hope in just building a healthy family, I work out and make 100k a year at 24 years old, have friends but it’s not fulfilling and I’ve worked so hard to get to where I am alone. I can’t get over the fact that I have to get abused by marriage laws with a coin flip. I don’t even have the energy to be angry anymore, the fact that women can’t even be empathetic and understanding is disgusting. I had my goal set at a very young age as a boy to create a healthy family going through my parents divorce. I’ve been in the red pill space since I was 21 and my mental space is just disrupted. I can’t look at life the same or feel happiness anymore. It doesn’t matter where I am with friends or on a vacation it never changes. I can’t live in the moment and enjoy anything without these thoughts. I have thoughts of ending it everyday. I never would’ve imagined my perception of the world to become this way through these ugly truths.