Hey Seddit, I need your help and insight on this.

Myself

I am a 21 year old student from a major metropolitan center. I am shorter than average in height, slightly better than average looking, and well groomed. People in my life regard me as exceptionally fit, very intelligent, and charismatic.

Who I was before (in high school and early college) I was immersed in David Deangelo, RSD, and The Game, etc.

  • Slightly extroverted and a bit awkward at times
  • Self conscious about my height and facial features
  • Never really that satisfied with anything
  • Had a few crushes, a few awkward dates that didn't go anywhere or turned into enduring friendships
  • Typical existential insecurities
  • I would fabricate life stories to elicit favorable opinions (e.g feigning relationship statuses)
  • Sometimes go out of my way to impress people (e.g. Dancing monkey archetype)

What I became as a consequence of following 'PUA' material

  • I became much more assertive and confident
  • People are looking to me as an authority figure
  • I've fostered a sense of integrity
  • I became brutally honest in most of my interactions with people
  • I became more intellectual well rounded
  • I fostered a fruitful appreciation for life and seek self actualization as a lifelong pursuit
  • I am very Gregarious in social situations and in low energy environments, I am very centered and insightful
  • I am much more dynamic as a conversationalist (e.g. I am adept at making people cry, laugh, and feel a wide range of emotions)
  • I can reap phone numbers at house parties and social events, and every once in a while, follow through with them - I can do this at a capacity that can impress some of my more experienced friends
  • Women and men regard me as an attractive individual within a plethora of dimensions
  • My relationships with people are more meaningful and plentiful

My quandary

  • I have yet to have a sexual experience
  • I've never even kissed a girl on the lips yet
  • I've had situations where women were giving me IOIs, and I didn't know how to respond. Either I was oblivious or I froze up ...
  • A couple girls have expressed interest in me, but I wasn't that attracted to them at the time so I had to refuse
  • I had this one occasion where a very attractive girl brought me over to her place for drinks and dinner, but I messed it up by not taking the lead. Her now-ex called her phone while we were hanging out and they reconciled as I stood there passively eating. /beingatool :P
  • I've been rejected a good handful of times - most are trivial dismissals at a club, I had 2-3 friendship speeches in the past 3-4 years

What I am asking from you

I want to develop a sense of self efficacy in the game and in my ability to foster meaningful interactions with people. I've yet to have my first sexual experience, let alone, a wholesome kiss. Words cannot describe how grateful I am to the seduction community for helping me reach higher potentials. 3-4 years is a long time and I am not seeing much 'game points'. There's no obstacle other than myself, really.

I know there are a lot of AFCs in my situation who have benefited from the material but have yet to get laid. I don't want to jump into someone's bedroom out of the urgency to build an identity as a PUA.

As silly as it seems, I don't know how to kiss and missed the instructional memos back in high school. When women meet me, they simply assume I am an experienced fella. They base this from my aura of confidence and coolness. When people ask about my sexual history, I just give them a vague answer - if you keep them guessing, they'll think you're quite something.

Where do I go from here?

tl;dr I've been through much of the material. All I got out of it was becoming a cool dude. I have yet to get laid or even kiss a girl

P.S. This is a throwaway account. There are a handful of Redditors that know me in person