I was a hard case, never even kissed a girl. I thought it would be a good idea in college to do day game 24/7, now anyone reading this IN college do NOT fucking do this. You will get a reputation fast.

I did get a few day2s, two of them were with really, really attractive women and I was so lost in what to do I couldn't push it further.

I couldn't figure out WHY I could never get laid, and the reason why was because I had nothing going on my life other than pick up, I was lonely, fucking depressed, and I was just ANGRY. That was the worst part, a few times I would call women names that I do not even want to post here, blaming them for my shortfalls, etc. I remember one night I took some xanax and went out and just totally blew up on these two girls that didn't want to talk to me, not fucking cool, man.

Now I didn't continue doing pick up that entire time, for around 2 years I completely shut down because I was so depressed, addicted to drugs, finally got my shit together.

I had gotten laid already, and I thank that to getting rejected most likely over 1000 times, brutal fucking rejections over and over, until it doesn't hurt anymore.

I just couldn't "get" why I wasn't pulling, I got to a point recently where, I could open literally any girl sober and talk to her but just couldn't get it going anywhere, it felt like I was banging my head against a wall and I had a mental breakdown. I took a day off after I went to a club and got brutalized, and I realized I just WANTED something from all these girls, I completely had forgotten to make any sort of human connection and looked at them like a hole for my dick. Fuck that man, even if you don't get laid you can have an amazing fucking time just talking to random people.

I don't read any PUA material anymore, because I think after a certain point you're good enough to figure it out on your own. It's so useless watching video after video when you can't internalize any of the information because you can't put it into practice, and in the mean time you have so much bullshit floating around in your head you forget this shit is just all about talking, how you hold yourself in a convo and how you deal with the bullshit later.

I think getting into pick up was one of the best things and one of the worst things, I am very driven and motivated, so not getting results fast really hurt me because I'm one of those people that wants things NOW. Just keep pushing, and don't beat yourself up, that's a problem I have most of the time outside of pick up. Pick up fucks you up in a good way, you get a mirror of your actions right in front of you, instant feedback, do you really want to know that some of the things you're doing is just fucking bullshit and you can't be really who you are in front of some random girl because you're too afraid to be real for one god damned second? After a certain point in your life you'll pick up what you need and realize, you need to kill the master to become one. You are your own teacher.

Anyway, last night I was fucking around with some friends at a bar, I had seen this girl earlier and she told me to come back, so for the first time in my life I pulled the "this is my girlfriend!" shtick, funnily enough the guy leaves BUT the girl leaves as well, so my wingman jumps in and is like "what's going on here?"

her friends have no idea what's going on and just start talking to us, i can tell one of the girls is into me so we chat for a bit, i pull her near me to talk closely

"listen, i like you"

she laughs

"and i think you like me"

she laughs again

"so what do you want, do you want my phone number?"

"sure, but i just want to see you again"

she gives me her number and keeps telling me over and over it's a girls night, so she's trying to find her friend i go for a makeout and i peace for about 30 seconds, see her again

"oh hey i found my friend!"

me: "i'm still looking for mine"

she goes back a bit and she spots my friend and texts me

"i found your friend but i lost you"

so i go back to her, and we all decide to go upstairs

so now we're getting pretty damn heavy up there, biting, kissing, dancing, you just know when a girl is getting horny as fuck over time

i got some extreme bull shit from her as well and i felt like i handled it perfectly

"this is a girls night.. i have to go"

"just relax, it'll be ok"

"listen i have to go"

"lets just stay here for a few more minutes"

you'll start to realize you don't need to actually remove her from her friends, if she's into you the friends aren't going to do shit unless they realize you're really bothering the girl and she doesn't want you to be with her anymore

her friend tries to take her from me but she's just staying with me

"hey you want to go with me now?"

"no, stop doing this to me

"ok"

now after we've been there 5-10 minutes i tell her i need to go to the store, stupid excuse to get out of the club, but whatever, and honestly as much as i hate RSD these days for a lot of stuff they're putting out, julien is right in saying just baby step it out of there, use some stupid excuse, actually got this girl to take me to a shop to get some deodorant cause i didn't have any left at home

get home, bam, this girl can't get enough, we had sex 5-6 times over 3-4 hours, and this girl was gorgeous, inside and out. and i was finally so happy i worked so hard for so long, because the sex didn't even fucking matter. you know what matters? i can confidently look any girl in the eye and not fucking break, and that my friends, is fucking power.

don't give up, tyler said something i really liked "pickup is SO easy, but it's the hardest thing you'll ever do"

good luck