Morning guys (if you are on the east coast). This FR from last night when I finally went out with the girl that I met at the wedding, the link to the first meeting is here. I will try to be detailed in this but I am honestly a bit pissed off about how this turned out so I may not type this whole thing fully.

Date

  • 6/24/17

Mood

  • Excited to go out

  • Trying to not have expectations but I am expecting to get laid

  • Wanted to feel her vibe

Originally we had agreed to do this date last Thursday, however due to scheduling conflicts (I had a different date) I changed the day to Saturday. She wasn't much of a texter and didn't really respond often or enough to my messages. But enough to the point of I could work out the logistics.

We agreed to go out for a motorcycle ride and maybe get some Rita's (an ice cream shop) afterwords. I had to drive into Baltimore to pick her up since she doesn't have a car, which is common with city folk. After arriving I greeted her and remembered how sexy her body was, but her face wasn't that good looking, her voice was a bit deep for my tastes but ok for a hookup I suppose.

While driving back to get my motorcycle we talked and had a really good intellectual conversation. It seemed like she was genuinely into talking to me and was starting to have a good time. Once we got on the bike is when I started to escalate things, the vibe I got when I met her at the wedding was that she wanted to hook up. So during this date I was touchy feely more than I normally would be on a first date. I was doing things like caressing her leg or holding her hand as we were riding. She didn't complain, and didn't stop me either. In fact she went with it! We eventually arrived at World of Beer in Towson after riding around for a bit and got some food.

This place is cheap enough for a first date, but they have a wide selection of beers. We ate dinner and discussed motorcycle things and further hanging out down the road. Right around here is where I bought up going on a second date. Her body language completely changed at this point, she honest to goodness cringed a little bit and said something along the lines of "hmmmmm, I don't think there will be a second date......" Now guys I was really pissed off at this, why in the hell would you give me all of these signs that you were into me only to change your mind that quickly. But I played it cool, instead of getting angry I wanted to know what the reason was for the sudden change of heart. Innocently and with genuine curiosity I responded "Why?" I also asked her not to mince words and I was cool with honesty.

She said something like, I was touching her too much too early into the date and how "she didn't even know me" yet. This was her biggest complaint. She wasn't upset but apparently this turned her off completely to future dates with me. I told her "That is just who I am I like to get touch and hold hands" she replied that this was "fine" and she wasn't offended at all but it made me not be date material for her. During this conversation that we had I started to second guess myself. I have been taking the lessons on this sub to heart and have really been employing them in my day to day life. I have seen results but is this an instance of backfiring?

I was expecting an awkward ass ride back to my car and then another awkward trip taking her home. But here is where things got a bit weird, I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve but I was doing a great job at hiding my frustration with this girl. On the ride home she was hugging me super tight on the back of my motorcycle, and doing other things to indicate attraction/cuddling. I didn't get it especially after just being rejected, maybe it's because I stopped all escalation moves towards her completely and she wanted to feel wanted again? Once I packed up my bike and got back into my car to take her home we talked further on how she thought it was "so cool" that I wasn't getting angry about this at all (I was pretty damn angry, my ego took a huge hit). I did about 80MPH+ on the ride back home I really just wanted her to get the fuck out of my car for wasting my time in all honesty. If she wasn't cool with me touching her all she had to do was tell me to stop and I would have shifted into a lower gear to move things slower, it's pretty simple.

Once I dropped her off she gave me a really nice long tight hug goodbye which would normally indicate interest but I was so frustrated I just wanted to hug to end so I could go home scream at myself for a bit/jerk off. Once she got the fuck out of my car I left Baltimore as fast as my car could go, tires screeching and everything. I have no idea why I got so angry over this one date...I have had more results in this past month then I have had in almost a damn year of trying. So I don't get what is upsetting me so much, maybe it's my ego. Oh and she offered to hook me up with one of her friends and sent me a pic this morning......just....No.... I am pretty frustrated with the outcome of this and to be honest very tired and upset that i'm not getting the results I want. In fact these girls should be jumping over each other to date me, especially baltimore girls. I don't get it, maybe i should take a break from this pick up business for a few days?

Thanks for reading

Home Mood

  • VERY pissed off

  • Bruised ego

  • Frustrated at women

[EDIT] I wanted to add that I could probably be friends with this girl that might lead to banging her in the future. But I don't want to get caught in that friend zone while she fucks other guys. Thoughts?