It's strange.

in a lot of ways I can see just how much better off I am without her.

she's obviously very mentally ill and doesn't think she needs to change at all.

Just like in the marriage It's obvious that she still lays the blame for everything at my feet.

It's been about 9 months since she left.

I still can't shake the feeling of sadness sometimes.

Will the sadness go away after the the divorce is finalized?

I didn't want this divorce initially.... there's a part of me that still doesn't want it. But now I'm getting to the point where I just want it over with since she is acting this way.

I mean, she won't even talk to me about anything, refuses any idea of reconciliation and just takes her anger out on me when anything is brought up.

in the marriage she always thought she was right about everything... and I think she thinks things are going to go a certain way for her but they're probably not.