I’ve definitely lost a lot of my social skills, and my current job is overnight security, so the only social interaction I really have are my roommates and occasionally my friend.

Ive been thinking about some of my hang ups, and it just seemed so clear to me tonight; I am super fucking boring. Like, I have a passion for video games, but even that feels like I’ve just been sort of “going through the motions” lately (I usually just “play” a few minutes before going to bed, most nights I fall asleep before even really doing anything in a game). I kinda-sorta can play a little guitar by ear (never learned to read music or even tabs), but that’s about it.

And really, that’s about it. I’m as much a “background character” as there really is.

No idea how to flirt or be exciting, hell I used to at least be funny, but I feel like that’s kinda slipped away too. I feel like I need to find some kind of “spark” for life again, you know?

This isn’t inherently related to dating, but as I’m about to turn 37, I feel like I’m on the verge of just completely become “an old man”. I really want to meet a woman to have kids with in the next few years (the sooner the better), so being able to develop an interest that’s also maybe going to give me things to talk about with the opposite sex, would be kind of two birds with one stone.

Worth noting, I’m also super overweight. I used to have an interest in skateboarding when I was younger, and always thought rock-climbing looked pretty cool, but I’m way too old for the former and too big for both (at least for now; making some adjustments to my diet, fingers crossed for some success over the next year or two).

I dunno, any feedback or suggestions? How do you get in “the right mindset”?