I had a wonderful 2nd date with a gorgeous woman until I dropped the ball at the very end. I guess I should first start off this post by telling you guys how our 1st date went to contextualize everything.

Me and this lady lived a few cities apart so I scheduled a location where we could meet in the middle but unknown to my knowledge the drive would have been 45 minutes for her. She was so beautiful and drop dead gorgeous to me that I felt bad for her to drive that long. So I picked a different location that was closer to her home. Which would have been 49 minutes for me to drive there but it was totally worth it.

Due to me scheduling the time of our evening at my least convivence, I decided to make our first date a dinner date because I was hungry, I didn't have time to eat dinner after work and I had to schedule the date a little early because the lady I was with had to wake up early the following day. Normally, drinks only at the first date would have been the smartest move but I didn't want to reschedule. If I tried to do so, I would have feared I would have never had another chance to see her again. I date opportunistically so whenever there's a chance of me meeting a beautiful lady at her best convivence, I will seize that chance even if it's the least of my convivence.

Our 1st date was very well. She had to step away for a moment to get on the phone because her child was calling. She had an emergency so she had to leave early. She put her food in a container that was given to her by our server and so did I. She asked me "Do you want to keep this?" I said "No. That's your food. That would be too much food for me. Haha." She said "Let's meet up for drinks at another time." As we were leaving the restaurant I told her "Let me carry your container for you. I'll hold your hand and I'll walk you to your car." She smiled and said okay. We're holding hands and I walked her to her car we kissed twice in the lips and said our goodbyes.

On our second date, We went to a fancy restaurant. We shared a plate this time and we had drinks. We were sitting side by side at a bar together. We were continuing to get to know each other. I would flirt with her here and there telling how amazing she looks. After our date we left the restaurant and I held her hand and walked her to her car again. During our walk, we were talking about scheduling our next date. After I walked her to her car, we hugged, kissed on the lips once and I was grabbing her ass with both of my hands and attempting to initiate foreplay. She pulled back and said "Too fast!". I said "Okay I'll go slower this time. Take care"

I drove home thinking I could have fucked everything up. As soon as I went home, I texted her saying "I hope you got home safe. I loved our time together. You're amazing. Have a good night."

I tried to schedule another date on the same week and she said "Hey I wanted to be honest. I didn't really feel a connection on our date. I was also uncomfortable when you grabbed and kissed me. I prefer to take things slow and keep it respectful"

I replied "I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable. That wasn't my intention and I am sorry for that. Now I know how we should pace things."

Later during the week I texted her again and said

"I hope you're doing well. I know you will be with your kids next week so I was wondering if you would like us to spend an evening together on the week after next week?

I still feel really bad about making you uncomfortable. I am very appreciative of you. I am totally fine with toning and slowing things down moving forward since you communicated that to me. Let me know what you think."

She said "Thanks so much for your message and understanding. You're a nice person but this is not the connection I am looking for. I think we should stop seeing each other. I wish you the best."

I look back in retrospective of all of the previous dates and interactions I have had with women before her. There was a time when I invited a lady back to my apartment for the first time ever and we didn't end up not even touching each other because I did not escalate. When I was dating another lady, she invited me back to her house after a club night out and we did not have sex because I did not escalate. We only made out and cuddled on the bed. There were quite more instances between me and women were things never happened because as a man, I did not initiate nor escalate. I really wanted to make a change within myself to stop hesitating and being nervous.

Back to the lady that I am primarily writing about. Admittedly, I had a strong desire for this lady and at the moment where I walked her to her car, I was acting upon my intuition to initiate kissing and to grab her ass. This has backfired.

I've had dates with other women where we would make-out on the first and second dates. I remember kissing and grabbing the ass of another woman after our second evening date and she was relaxed and receptive. It didn't happen this time.