I can't say life isn't bad at the moment. As far as divorce goes I have my two amazing children.

Since a week or two ago. I just distracted a lot. I can focus when I have the children or at work. Those moments alone I have been more "doom scrolling" getting loss in watching TikTok or YouTube. Had a down period with college work last week, which has kept me occupied. I did work some overtime on the day I didn't have my children to keep myself preoccupied.

I was out on lunch with my children. We had a great day made me happy. At times I feel like I can't find anything to say anymore. I realized a lot of things I have lost interest in. Anything to do with my children I am interested in or what's going on with their life.

Just feel worried more about the future and what will happen at times. Really want my children four days a week. Love to have them more like all the time 24/7 but that be selfish I have to work.

When I was a child of a divorce I had a village. Had my mom, two grandparents, two great grandparents, two Aunts, two Uncles, friends of family, neighbors, family neighbors, Scouts, Cousins, and so forth. My children on my side at the moment have myself and my mom. Blessed with two children so they have each other. Everything feels smaller. Everyone mentions I can reconcile with my family. They are coming down in a few weeks but I'll be at work so my Aunt is coming down to visit my Mom. I won't see them. I am not sure how I'll reconcile. Calling them up just it's hard something have to build up to. Can try next year right now want to get through to the end of the year.

Anyone feel like this or has gone through these emotions?