He’s almost 10. We’ve been living together while separated since December. He knows somethings wrong between us. Probably already knows. I’m scared he will hate one or both of us. I’m planning to move out in June. I’d rather end myself than tell him. I’m so traumatized over my parents divorce when I was a kid. I know it’s not the same. Logic tells me he will be better off than I could have hoped as a kid. But I’m still scared. My mental health is so bad. So so bad.