I swallowed the pill in middle of February 2015. At the time I was 190 pounds sporting a kegger and man boobs with absolutely no muscles and couldn't even make one pushup. Since then I can now make 30 pushups, weight dropped to 155 with flat-ish (getting there) stomach, more money at work, improved clothes, confidence, etc. She lost 20 pounds and looks the best since she got pregnant with our first at 26. She's now 33, almost 3 months pregnant and only gained a pound to get to 128 at 5'4.

Yesterday was our 13th wedding anniversary. Sex is up, blowjobs are completely on the table now, heck I got her nice lace panties and took photos of her wearing them (don't ask.) Shit like that hasn't happened since the beginning of when we were dating.

Still none of that shit impressed me as much as what happened when we talked about me getting/not getting a motorcycle. I got rid of mine to chip in to pay for the wedding. Every spring I kind of get bike fever and this one is no different. The last few years when I brought up buying one, the response was I'd divorce you immediately, or not unless you buy life insurance.

The response yesterday was still that she didn't want me to get one, but the difference was that she said: I don't know what we would do without you. Just in general her appreciation of me is markedly improved even compared to when we were dating. She knows that MRP and NMMNG are the two driving forces behind my change but it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter how I woke up to the world around me. It matters that I did.

Now here's where I'm fucking up as I write this. I understand that I shouldn't seek validation from her. I should seek it from within. Yet here I am writing FR about the validation I got from what she said to me. It didn't have that much of effect on me yesterday when she said it. It just hit me when I reflected on that conversation and I thought I'd share it.

I know I still have lots of work ahead of me, but I'm on the right track and the results so far are phenomenal. I didn't think my relationship was in trouble before MRP. What appealed to me about this was expected increased sexual response. Now I can't see myself living any other way and it isn't just about sex anymore.