Stats.

Height: 6'4

Weight: 235

Bf: 23%

BP: 120KG SQ:155KG DL:170KG

I discovered the red pill just before I entered this LTR. And I have been soaking up all that this sub has to offer and so much more! I stumbled across this beautiful place from YouTube when I was searching for answers like everyone else.

I was to quote a "student" of Corey wayne a kind of famous YouTube dating and life coach. What he was teaching was very insightful and for somebody who is completely none alpha when it comes to women it really helped me! I was a complete white knight (and I mean complete). I watched my dad beat and do terrible things to my mum. It ingrained in me that women are to be protected and cared for. In every other aspect of my life I was alpha. dominant, secure, indifferent, masculine and strong. Took zero shit from anyone and would drop any fucker anytime that disrespected me. Except with women, the things I let them get away with to me now is criminal. Any women would turn me into a complete little fucking bitch.

I'd do exactly what they wanted when they wanted. I'd DEER to them and still do. I'd explain myself and not do things to fuck them off because I wanted to be better then my dad! (What a fucking joke).

I was going through asktrp looking for answers but I knew all the things I needed because of Corey! I then only looked at trp but that was confusing me because they were only looking for women to fuck and what to do with ONS, plates and fwb. There was not much content about becoming a fucking great man! So I stumbled on this sub and MRP and I have to say, it feels like it's where I need to be! I'm not here to blow smoke up your asses but you guys are so focused on being the best men you can that it just pulled me in.

Now my problem!

Im in an LTR, and through the hole time my views have changed, dependant on where I was in my trp map. With the information and books that I have and my sidebar readings you can guess I am changing all the god damn time! I read things that resonates with me and change to that information! My frame is basically fucking shattered and I'm rebuilding but it seems I have not done so well, until I got here! This is having a nasty effect on my LTR! She is saying things that cannot be ignored and I need to know if I should hop out of it to rebuild my frame and life and then go back in to something with a new look and outlook! I love her and it's been an up and down 2 years but I need some help!

Here some of the things she has said!

Her:

"your such a head fuck"

"I never know where I am with you"

"Your too serious"

"You need to listen to my feelings"

"Why can't I figure you out"

"I feel like the connection has gone"

"I need to know where I stand with you"

"You never open up to me"

"Your bipolar"

"You need anger management"

Then the most recent was she sent me a meme about bad boys want good girls to act bad and good girls want bad boys to act Good! Whatever the fuck that means.

Any advice would be helpful. Not trying to troll or anything. She knows I'm into self improvement as well as she asked why I have so many books because "I don't look like the type". Thanks!!!