Married 24 Years Me:49 Wife 46 3 kids 21,17,16 5'10 182 lbs 12%BF BP275 Squat 325 DL 375. Discovered MRP after trolling Dead Bedrooms about my situation about 2 weeks ago. Read most of sidebar currently working The Way of Superior Man.

Quick backstory. Married young. Oneitis. Relationship, finances, kids, sex all good until about 5 years ago. Series of brutal business decisions resulted in losing a shit ton of money, almost bankrupt. Wife blamed all on me that lifestyle was changing. She never worked, kids in private school, vacations etc. Felt sorry for myself and went serious beta and drank heavily. Ended up in hospital in withdrawals, almost died. Decided one day to wake the fuck up and wound up in AA 2 and half years ago. Realized that everything was my fault and only I could fix it. Got my shit together, AA meetings everyday, lifting, and building business back up. Wife went back to work, she stopped when kids were born, as a RN. Has since become a cosmetic injector(botox, filler etc) which surprisingly brings in 6 figures. She still does all the housework. She has been on anti depressants for about 10 years. Her libido has been dropping/gone and she has no desire for sex. Whenever there is argument about lack of sex her shit test is that I was a drunk.

Been like my past self with alpha traits as my confidence is back and she doesn't deny sex, its just starfish. "Are you finished?" Read sidebar and am definitely in phase 3. Have bought up weaning off the pills but she is reluctant. Even spoke to the family doctor but both their philosophies as medical professionals is take a pill, it will fix it.

Want to go Rambo with this new found knowledge but am still feeling guilty about my 2 years of drinking. Should I STFU as shit tests have been decreasing? Am prepared for all criticism.