Im a paramedic at a major hospital and is a primary covid testing center. This pandemic is wearing me thin. At first I've delt with it quite well. I've been keeping my family and my LTR grounded as there has been a lot of hysteria and they all are looking at me for guidance.
But this shit getting worse. 2 of my ER docs were just intubated. 2 of my friends tested positive. I've seen the worst of this virus. Just now I cried outside the ER. I don't know how much longer I can hold it together!! I'm trying to be strong for my family and LTR. Help!
Edit: don't know what I was looking for with this post. Just needed to vent to someone. I actually feel better. Covid is no joke! Stay the fuck home!
Edit 2: Reading through all your comments I've been crying my eyes out. I needed to deflate! I've been stoic throughout this ordeal and no one has seen my pain. But stoicism can take me so far. This was very therapeutic for me. Crying "in front men" who I've never met, but i ironically trust. Thank you for this. This pandemic is very real, I honestly feel at this point it about the survival of the fittest. Stay healthy, don't smoke, and keep your distance. This is going to take months before it settles. I'm going to continue to do what I do until this is over. Stay safe my friends!