Hi,

I am writing to you as a former lurker, because you are the most supportive community here on Reddit. And I feel completely alone and wrecked...

I was clearly happy with my girlfriend and she was with me. At least, I believe. But I felt awesome, because she knew what love is. I thought so. This sounds trivial, especially for you, but I know that there was something special which is a true rarity in these days. I had previously a few relationships and believe me, please - I never felt really loved, even by my family, until I met her. For now, we did not lived together (she lives with her parents because the university is much closer from their house than my place). Never felt so much happiness in my life. God, the way how she looked at me with her beautiful green eyes, this smile... Most of you know. Multiple it x10. :)

Recently we decided to go for a trip. We were supposed to go with a bigger pack of people, but finally only we and her female friend (whom I did not know personally until now) went. I knew from my girlfriend that the friend is depressed now. So, I was trying to be kind to her, just to show that I am a friendly man, so I said that she looks very pretty at the beginning when we met. Later the trip went great, we were definitely had a good time - especially in our couple, with taking lots of photos and having romantic ideas like cruise tour. By the evening my girlfriend sent me a text that she feels awesome and is glad that her friend liked me. Next two days went very well, we have planned the next date, had a really cute conversation which was full of love from both sides.

What went on the next day completely ruined me. She was very reserved after my message. As far as I know her, she felt very upset, so I reached her to get to know what's baffling her. She responded that she feels disappointed, because I should not making compliments to the freshly-met woman. Later we had a rough phone call where she denied all my arguments. That making just a plain compliment, without any intention to hitting on her, just to show her that I am polite. Or that I would not be upset if the roles were reversed, because that is just a few plain words without meaning.

My girlfriend projected something and she said to me that she will never trust me again. She also said that who knows what I do without her. Which is obviously not true and unfair, because I never even looked at other girl during our relationships. Moreover, I even denied the try from one girl to hit on me. I proved countless times how I cared for her, she also made so much for me, helping to get me out from the depression which I have suffered. Nothing is now important for her, in one moment she lost all the feelings which she had to me.

I am in ruins, gents. Nothing has a meaning. We had so much memories, so much common souvernirs... So many "our" songs which now haunt me in radio, making even one of my favourite activities (driving a car) obsolete. My drawing passion, which was a fuel for life, now became something which hurts me. My favourite place in which we kissed for the first time is never the same again. This day my heart was killed.

You know what... just a two days ago she said, our love is so strong that nobody and nothing will torn it apart. Well, it turned out the four meaningless words were strong enough to break it.

I am wasted, cried two nights all over. Please, any feedback, advices and support will be appreciated, I cannot rely on my family which is against me, currently I can hear how they argue and are ready to attack me. Please help me. I do not know how much more I can resist.