So I recently broke up with my ex since I caught him lying and basically cheating on me. I’m in a place where I know I need to cut him off, but emotionally want to just use him for free food and sex. I say this because I immediately blocked him off of everything, but started feeling the anguish of rosy retrospection. I unblocked him and called him to help gain some closure. I am seeking advice to know if having a FWB relationship with him is just as toxic, or if it’s possible to help me heal, since I put him on a pedestal when I’m not in contact with him. I realize a lot of this is also a product of me not knowing my worth, and am struggling to help build myself in that light.