Seriously. Im 20 years old and have never had a girlfriend before and it's eating me up mentally. Ive only had sex once before and it was with an escort and the experience didn't really go that well tbh. I just did it cause I didnt wanna end up a virgin still in my 20s( I was 19 at the time). So the problem is I for the love of God can not stop caring about what it's like to get a girlfriend. I literally live in an off campus apartment close to my college so as you can imagine im surrounded by hundreds of girls my age everyday.

Whether I go to the grocery store or library, there's so many girls I see that im attracted to so it automatically makes me go back into the mindset of "I can't get a girlfriend". I just dont know what to fucking do. People say "work on yourself, focus on your hobbies" "be happy with yourself" all the cliche shit but the problem with that is I feel like that advice only works for people who have already been in relationships before and just wanna accept being single. My problem is much worse in that the curiosity of knowing what it's like to experience love is literally killing me. That's why i cant stop thinking about it. I dont know what to do and it's eating me up mentally.