You're all welcome to judge me, speak your mind, and please help me see-through.

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My wife and I are now discussing divorce. We are just unhappy together. She got a baby from this marriage, and I think that is what she wanted out of me.

I met my wife when we both were 25, she was the ideal woman, but then I met her younger sister, and I fell in love with her sister.

She was a true perfection, a neurosurgeon, beautiful, very polite, and could talk to her for hours without getting bored. She was fit and overall gorgeous with a smile that can make you forget all the pains.

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I did not have the confidence, and I did not want to look like an asshole and lose both. I didn't either have the confidence to date a girl like her, even though she was humble and not thinking much of herself.

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I wanted to take things slow, but my wife rushed me for marriage, and we got married in less than a year after meeting. She did everything to get married.

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My wife then seemed like an Alibaba knock-off version of her sister, not as educated with a miserable job, a nagging bitch that it is hard to hold a 10 minutes conversation with her.

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After we got married, her sister confined to me that she would have married me in a heartbeat if I met her first. My wife became jealous and told her sister that I was an abusive husband. Her words destroyed my relationship with not only her sister but the whole family.

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I tried everything to move on and forget about her, but I could not. I tried sport, drugs, meditation, you name it.

Now, her sister is getting married, and my heart is so broken. I am like a dog in a corner crying; Crying for what I was not a man enough to take. Crying for not having the balls.

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Her sister's husband is a decent man, taller than me and slightly better looking.

Now, I am secretly hoping she will divorce, and we might end up together. I know am my chances are close to 0. but that's what keeps me alive and going to the gym and do work.

Sometimes, I fall into depression and think of suicide because my life is so miserable then I think of my daughter and feel even more depressed. I do not have the energy to move on. I am unable to work or wake up in the morning.

I could have been happily married her enjoying life, but I am here depressed in the dark while another man is making her happy.