I'm feeling pretty depressed about dating... I wonder if gaining all of this knowledge on intersexual dynamics, evolutionary psychology, blackpill, lookism, redpill, divorce statistics etc was worth it in the end.

I feel like even if I wanted to date now I wouldn't be able to stop comparing my dating life to a guy who's physically attractive.

Like if I was on a dating with a normie woman i'd probably think "well she would've slept with me if i was chad", "she wouldnt be as flaky if i was chad", "she wouldnt expect me to pay for everything if i was chad"

It's making me question whether it's even worth it, being blackpilled, I've also seen other posts on reddit of people who are becoming blackpilled but are worried of falling further down the rabbithole.

I'm kind of like Cypher, realising the truth of the world but having periods where I want to be plugged back into the Matrix.