So I'm officially going to court for the first appearance on my divorce case. Wife and I were married 6 years and have two children, one 3 and one 11 weeks. She was the one that filed against me because she found porn on my computer and took both kids and the dog and cat away to her mothers.

I have been the sole income the last 3 years and literally uprooted my life from Minnesota to move us all to Texas to be closer to her family. We have been growing farther and farther apart the last few years and some of that is because of the porn use but I also put much of it on the fact that she was unwilling to dedicate any time to our marriage vs the kids. She literally NEVER put our first daughter down for a nap, she always had to hold her or have someone hold her. She obtained a masters degree after our marriage and before she finished, decided to quit work to stay home with the children - this after she had said our entire relationship she would never be a stay at home mom.

I had to scramble to figure out how to support our family on a single income, all while she CONTINUED and finished her masters which she has done nothing with. She has also been restricting my access to both girls even though I was the one that always has handled our oldest in the mornings, evenings and most recently, over nights. I also work from home, so was often asked to come out to help with meals or change a diaper. My lawyer and I are pushing for 50/50 custody which from what I understand, isn't given that often by judges.

I tried to extend the offer to negotiate with my stbxw but she has started twisting my words and has become someone that I no longer recognize, cold, heartless, and manipulative...IE, her mother. She has literally went completely off the deep end and I have no idea what shit her and her lawyer may try to say. Besides the porn, which was never exposed to the children and I have actually started seeing a compulsion therapist to show my commitment to quit watching it as a crutch for anxiety/stress. Another wrinkle is that I was diagnosed with depression at the beginning of August but have been taking medication, started working out, running and eating right every day and feel better than I ever have. I have signed notes from both my therapist and psychiatrist that outright state I am of no risk to anyone, including myself and that I'm doing everything right to take care of my faults. Overall it's been a rough month because I think some of this is post partum/hormones from the pregnancy/breast feeding and there is just no speaking to her anymore. So I feel like I'm grieving the relationship, the 8 plus years of time I invested in her and desperately want to see my girls which she keeps restricting.

What advise does this group have as I prepare for the first court appearance on Tuesday?