About to sign papers to be finally be divorced, I find myself not getting out/going out of the house very much. I do lack a social circle, but with the few friends I do have, whether in state or from gaming; I find it hard to want to actually get up and go hang out with people. I’m not sure how common this is, whether it’s very or not so much. I’ve been mentally fucked for majority of my life with being bi-polar and severe depression.

I’ve been low before in mood, but this is a new level I didn’t imagine being in. If my back isn’t in insurmountable pain, I make up excuses quite often so I don’t have to go out and deal with people. Will this ever come to an end and I find myself being social and out more? Or have I been caught in an anti-social lifestyle? Apparently my ex wife has been able to go out and do things with her new boyfriend or other “friends” and asks me what I’ve been up too just to come back and say nothing really.