As it says - she's booked a vacation in which I've been asked to come in order to carry our disabled son up and down the stairs at the waterpark. She paid for and booked everything, and I'm just a bit confused. It's effectively us sharing a hotel room for 4 days all expenses paid. I was honest (or weak) about it, and asked if this was an attempt to reconcile. I was told that will never happen. I'm having a moral crisis, it's not good for me to share a room with her, as I haven't fully accepted the loss, and still have feelings. But I'd like to be there for my son to maximize his childhood experiences, so it feels immature not to. He'll be full time in a wheelchair within the next 12-18 months, we share 50 50 parenting time as it is. Do I just suck it up?