We were only married a year and a half. Together for a bit over 5. We had a lot of conflict through our relationship, but I'm still here holding on to a dream. Wife beat me for 3 years and on valentines day I finally snapped and did something I could have gone away for. She left and we discussed a break, having her get an apartment here. Everything was going OK and then 2 weeks after she tells me shes coming back for me, she is not interested in. She's found happiness there. I get it, she's got guys hitting on her, no bills, none of the worries we accrued together. She's ordering panties online and dropping subtle hints about guys messaging at 2 in the morning. I made my mistakes, but god damn, didnt think I deserved this. Really struggling with the reality that this woman may have used me for 5 years and is going to drop me like a bad habit. Left me on a 30 minute call of it's over after texting back and forth for 2 months, and no contact since. She cheated with me when she left her last 5 year stint. I think the writing may be on the wall, but this convoluted since of hope I have tells me there's still a shot. Fucked up right?