Gentleman, I would truly appreciate any help. Please see the facts below:

Money:

Wife makes after taxes $46,500.00 She makes minimum in cash $2,000 monthly = $70,500

I make $24,000 a year after taxes.

MARriage:

We have been married for 15 years. 2 children.

During our marriage, she has always made more than me.

I became a stay-at-home father in support of her carrier.

Her schedule has always been of the utmost importance.

I have had jobs that I would continuously lose due to needing to take off when our kids were young and get sick.

Two years ago on Christmas, she did not get me a gift. Silly to feel hurt but I said "that's ridiculous"

From there in front of our kids, she said that she gave up on us a long time ago. She also said in front of them that she thinks I trapped her by us getting pregnant.

No physical relationship for the past 4 1/2 years

The kids:

Being that I have been raising them primarily on my own since they were babies we have an amazing relationship.

The wife has a habit of losing her shit on one thing then being mad and mean to the kids. For example, Our youngest has a best friend that moved about 2 1/2 hours away. The friend's birthday party was this weekend. Our youngest has been so excited for weeks now. The night before the day trip our youngest had some books out of place in her room. The kid's mother lost it and started telling our youngest that we would not be going to the party. Of course, the kid losses it and starts to cry.

Unacceptable behavior:

She did not come home one night a few years back. She said she was drunk and spent the night at a friend's house. Her GPS said otherwise. When confronted with it she said I was crazy.

For 2 1/2 years, I paid every bill, vacation, present. She can't tell me where two years of salary went. (Money was from a settlement)

Openly disrespectful to me in front of friends, family, and kids

Currently, all of my pay goes to bills for the family (this includes her car payment and for a storage unit because she can't throw shit away. At the end of a check, I have enough for gas and that is it. On the other hand, my wife almost always has a box at the front door with things she has bought for herself, not the kids, not for the home, definitely not me.

Question: If I ask for a divorce will I be able to get alimony and child support? As of now, I do not want to be married anymore but I do not make enough to be able to support myself and my kids. The job I have now allows me to be able to take care of my kids while allowing me to learn a great field. I do have a bright future with the company being I am the only one who can do the job and has the experience. Small company so I am next in line when my boss retires in two years which will be a significant boost. Until then I will need the alimony and child support, after that, I will let her keep it. I just want out. I am tired of being verbally and mentally abused. My kids deserve better and I feel like I have let them down living the way we have for so long. Any help would be so helpful. Thank you in advance gentleman.