New here, never posted either. Very small support system, with family issues being one of the major points that killed our relationship. Currently going through separation and most likely divorce after being together for 8 years. I’m just still grieving and dealing with my emotions. I sleep on the couch currently since we have a small 1 bed apartment. But she brought up getting separate apartments, I guess I’m just jealous how far along she is in this process than I am. I haven’t been able to think about those steps yet but she has.

Hindsight is killing me about it all still and I just hate that this is where things are, and that i / we are here. The time alone and apart is deafening, eating hurts, sleeping has been a struggle.

I get outside because of our dog we share but even contemplating shared custody of our doggo is hard to even contemplate right now.

I’m pursuing therapy and working on finding the right fit. But that process takes time.

Everything feels raw and numb. Thank you all for reading / listening