How long does it take for the perpetual soul sucking sadness to end. I’m trying to move on. Trying to distract myself, with work, working out, healthy ways. Maybe some unhealthy ways too. Nothing works, nothing helps. She was the only thing that filled this hole in my heart I’ve had my whole life. Now that she’s gone the hole isn’t filled and it’s even bigger. I have no will or spark left for life. I feel worse than when my grandmother passed. I just don’t even know what to do with myself.