My wife and I have been separated for over a year and the divorce should be wrapping up here soon, hopefully. I wasn’t able to confirm the affair until about 3 months ago. It stings. She still won’t admit it happened, but the bank statements, credit card charges, and everything else say otherwise.

All I can think about is how she blew up our family for this asshole. She gets to live the life she wants now and leaves me and our kid to pick up the pieces. The kids bouncing between homes and wants his parents under the same roof, gets upset Mom isn’t here, wants to leave her to go to Dad’s, it breaks my heart. Meanwhile she gets to do whatever the hell she wants with this guy.

She’s always put herself first. We agreed to a new schedule that’s better for our son, but she would only do it under the conditions she set forward, which I assume was to spend more time with AP. From the looks of it he blew his family up for her too, or his wife caught him I should say.

I’m dipping my toe into the dating world again and it’s breaking my heart. I don’t want these other women, I want the one I made these vows to.

What do I do? I know going out on some dates and stuff would help get me out of the house, and maybe this funk I’m in. Or do I just keep sitting here miserable? I don’t want to bring anyone else down with me.

Maybe I am broken like my STBXW said.