I feel completely lost and purposeless. Nothing feels good anymore or right. She was my purpose (I know, that was my biggest mistake.). All the hobbies I used to do to escape the house and have fun now feel meaningless without having her to go home to. Traveling and exploring is just so damned lonely. I’m tired of only having my thoughts to keep me company. Everything I do feels pointless and like I should be doing something else but nothing feels good even the things I love to do. Damn I hate myself for losing her.