It’s always the hardest part. There is a 5 day period in our schedule where I don’t see them. It’s always the worst after the first few days. The sting doesn’t go away. I know they say stay busy and I do but man I’m a fucking father and to be away away from them this long and losing so much time with them now that they are little I can’t get used to it. The sadness is real. This is the hardest part about the divorce. Not being with the kids. I have a 60-40 schedule (60 for her). It will be 50-50 soon.

I miss my boys. She made me feel like shit and it was time to leave for many reasons. But without sugar coating things not seeing my boys for half the month just kills me. I still struggle with it on at least 4 days a month. Some guys cope better. I don’t have a gf and I’m one year out. Trying to learn to cope with my new life situation without “needing” someone else. It’s working so far.