I’ve always been kind of a negative person. I don’t know why exactly. Anyway, I’m trying to change that about myself. One thing that seems very difficult for me is seeing a future for myself. I am in my late 40’s and was married to my stbxw for nearly two decades. It’s been about a year since she left and I have changed greatly as a person (thanks to God). I’ve lost more than 100 lbs, I’m no longer in anti-depressants, I go the the gym 2-3 times a week. Spiritually I am much closer to God and deeper in my faith. But I get lonely. I can’t see a time when I may meet someone else that would actually love me for who I am. It’s hard for me to conceptualize any kind of future like that. I desire companionship but I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to trust again or if anyone would even want me. Anyone else felt like this?