We have been through mediation. The documents are written, everything is sorted, just waiting for her to file.

I have grayrocked her for the most part.

We are still living together. I don’t have a lot of the emotions many other guys have. I don’t love her anymore, I don’t want to get back together with her, I’d like to have as little contact as possible with her in the future, other than dealing with issues concerning the kids.

I am at peace with the fact that it’s over, and just want to move on with my life.

Most days I am completely indifferent as to what she is doing or thinking, etc.

Today, kind of surprised me though. I have this persistent feeling of sadness. Not for her as an individual because she’s no longer the person i married, but for the loss of the relationship and dynamic which I had become accustomed to.

The loss of having another human who is supposed to be your partner for life, someone you can trust, someone who cares about you, someone who loves you.

I hope I find that again, and this time it will be with the right woman. Maybe I’ll just stay single, and focus on myself. Who knows.