I’ve been posting here since the separation started (November).

The amicable separation is going somehow southwards now that it’s more focused on actual paperwork (no kids, 2 year marriage). Waiting for her counter proposal, but it’s not coming. And this is also eating away at me.

Last week I’ve been sick - flu or so - but man the last 2 days have been getting emotionally tougher. To a place where I’m actually missing her. A lot.

Since the separation I’ve been really ok (it wasn’t strange being without her we’ve had some kind of long distance for the last 18 months either way). So it was normal being alone.

I was fueled by anger the last few months which was easy somehow. And kept me positive.

But now - all of a sudden - I’m past the anger - and just feeling that I’m missing her. That she is moving on - perhaps happier. Bla bla bla.

I guess (hope) I’m moving to the depression (stage 4) of the 5 stages of grieve…

Just needed to rant - and maybe hear supportive words.