4 months post divorce and most things wrapped up. House sale, buyout etc remaining.
Overall have been fairly happy knowing it was the best thing for me. Blocked her on text because I got tired of getting texts accusing me of abuse, use, using the kids against her etc and how she wakes up in the middle of the night due to the so called abuse. I’m now in a position to know this is complete BS. My problem was the lack of boundaries on my part and bending over backwards to try and compensate for her lack of happiness. Did that for years, at the expense of my well being, family relationships, finances and overall happiness.

Knowing this is the right thing to do, I don’t know how to fight the feelings of despair and what might have been. I think I understand it is my mind working against me and the remorse at how I wanted it to work out. But man it feels really tough some days.

Just needed to vent and write this down.