I figured I was too ugly to ever meet a woman “organically”. I tried online dating and it didn’t work out. I tried going to meetups and events and nothing. I eventually got tired of being lonely and rejected and went this route. I’ve been with over 100 women and I’ve spent close to 25k. I feel bad for spending all this money like this. I don’t know how to stop. Redpill thoughts still creep in here and there.