Just venting I guess. Ive been reading so many posts here and thought I was going to be strong.

A guy I hooked up with started randomly replying to my stories.

Yesterday he heart reacted to a selfie.

So I sent an emoji back thinking that would be it (Just wanted to match him with no words)

He replied “you look great x” (after literally a second)

I should have left it there, but my friend was also in the room (she knows him) and i was like definitely melting a little (ugh sorry) because I wasn’t expecting this. She went “just ask him if he wants to go for a drink”

I was like “he’s overseas” (Even if he was here, no fucking way)

I was like “this is still not a conversation, it’s not like he’s actually talking. Why didn’t he do this while he was here”

And she was like “he’s planting a seed now!”

Then she went “just ask him how his trip is going.”

And for a while I was like no. Not gonna do that. Trying to stick to the advice from here.

Buuuuuuut no. I decided to just ask it anyway. Because that was what I wanted to say myself and was trying so hard to convince myself not to.

But lol now he hasnt replied!!! It’s been a day. Fml.

Ugh now I’m afraid of how that made me look. I was so ready to be ~distracted~ and looking for other boys if I saw him at an event again. and for that to send my message to him, but now I’ve ruined that.

I just wasn’t even expecting him to interact with me at all over DMs.

Why did I listen to her 😭 I feel like an idiot.