Hello ladies! Just stumbled across this sub and I am in love. I’m in my late 20’s and my life has been absolutely filled with LVM. Every man I’ve ever been with has put me through the ringer physical abuse, psychological abuse, gaslighting and pretty much just being a lazy shitty fuck. I am separated (for almost a year now) and will hopefully soon be divorced from my ex husband of (6 months) and partner of 7 years. I could go on and on about my soon to be ex husband but really he was a video game addicted loser with no real goals who offered less than nothing especially sexually. So when me and him split I hit the dating apps immediately.

The first guy I met off tinder lovebombed me hard up until I slept with him. Then I only received snaps from him whenever he wanted to fuck. I was so heartbroken and lost after my ex husband left me (yes said loser left ME) that I accepted this behavior. I thought I could fuck like a man (LOL) and not be emotional. Well I was wrong. Caught feelings for the guy and let him use me for sex for almost a whole year.

In between being used by him I started what I would call a sexual “old lady who ate the fly”. I kept using dating apps to meet new guys to get over the one who I had just slept with who was making me feel like shit. I then was letting multiple guys just come over and sleep with me. Unprotected and to the point where some of them weren’t even kissing me let alone making sure it felt good for me. I kept doing this waiting to feel empowered but instead was left feeling worthless.

I ended things with the first guy I met off tinder. He was the one I was really attached to. That made me feel empowered. So I then deleted Snapchat as it was nothing to me but a cesspool of jerks sending me bullshit content. Now I’m down to one fuck buddy. Who is honestly such a low value scum bag but I find my “sexual nature” wanting to Hold on to him. He doesn’t respect me, barely kisses me or touches me during sex and when it’s over runs out of my house. He texts me at odd hours of the night for sex and when he does ask me to Meet up tells me he “might stop by”. When I told him I would need a yes or a no answer he told me that I don’t have other shit to do anyway. He’s attractive and has a nice dick but he needs to go. I know this isn’t serving me in any real way. I’m not ashamed to admit that I want to be touched with real affection and while the sex may feel good it’s not worth the low feelings that come along with it.

I’m new to being empowered and finding my value. Was just hoping some of you could tell me to block/ditch/ignore this LVM and truly begin to value myself.