Ladies, I need some guidance. Please note this may contain triggers for those of you who have been raped or otherwise harmed by a depraved person masquerading as a male human. I will keep this very short & sweet. (I tried 😟)

6 years ago I was raped. The perpetrator admitted to it in a text to me. His exact words were:

"It's my fault, you said no and I didn't listen."

"But I'm a pig and didn't listen."

"No means no and you in a round about way said no and I took you into my room which I shouldn't have done."

"No means no, stop means stop. And I didn't follow those rules last night."

Now, to be completely transparent, I made excuses for him at the time & I took the heat for letting it happen because I didn't fight back. I was like a deer in the headlights while he stood there pacing & punching his fist into the palm of his other hand. Several things went through my mind and I tried to steer his mind in a different direction such as watching a movie or going to get ice cream. I considering making a run for my car but didn't think I'd make it. I just wanted out of there. I was fucking SCARED! He was 6'2" & 280. I'm 5'4" and at the time was 170.

The next day I called the police department to ask about filing a police report. The woman who answered the phone told me not to bother because they had more important things to do & it would take a long time & they would never prosecute.

Late last summer I filed a police report. I told the man what she said & he apologized but as he took the report he mentioned "consensual sex" and I immediately corrected him. He then typed up the report & said he would forward it to a detective. When speaking with the detective I mentioned the texts & sent him a copy of every single text between the 2 of us.

I received a letter from the prosecutor in February in which he denied prosecuting citing: "with no forensic evidence to support the victims claims, no explanation on why it took 6 years to report and inconsistencies in the submitted text message, this claim is denied.". I am waiting on a copy of the police report because I did tell them why I didn't prosecute at first. And I got tested for STD's at which time I told my PCP that I had been raped as well as my chiropractor. They were stunned into silence & never mentioned it again.

I should note that the officer, detective & prosecutor are all male!!!

Ladies, what would you do? The more I write the angrier I get.

Edit: I am wondering what your thoughts are on the text messages. To me it proves my case HANDS DOWN! How could you not choose to prosecute? That makes me the angriest.