So I am a new member. And newbie. Essentially, I suck. I especially suck as it relates to this little fiefdom you almost hold near and dear.

But I have insight. Boy do I ever have insight.

I have previously thought that we are also special; I'm particularly special. That's call, after all, this should whole buyers for assault to be unique, right?

At the same time it preaches to lose the ego… lose the ego… lose the ego… but just in what God's green earth does that mean?

It's so esoteric after all; how in the fuck does one lose their ego?

I would have scratched myself and told beautiful cough (that should say "I would have asked myself and then said to fuck off" afterall I'm dictating).

[Have You Seen Devil Man Crybaby, Jesus.]

I wonder do all the holy rollers, the founders of this group whom I so admire understand what it really means to find humility, to lose their ego?

I doubt it. But that's okay.

I legitimately nuked my ego. I thought I had before, and thought I had before that too.

It really actually is a beautiful thing. I have found peace. In a much different kind of way than you might imagine. I have found it where one would expect to find Trauma and darkness and disregard.

You are searching but you are searching in the wrong place and you are seeking out something from the wrong person. I have come to realize that you can't know it. But it's true. There's something much much better when you search within...

If you don't believe me, go fuck yourself.