I've posted on this sub more than once so I feel like I need to give you an update on how my life is going as well as to vent out a few things:

Simply put, I feel burned out and lagging behind. Surely grades are good in college but I feel like I've worked myself up too hard. I'm now dreading going back to college (I start again Monday) because of my burnout. It doesn't help that I'm studying a course that demands 200% efficiency everyday. I would like to take a day off or something but unfortunately, I'm already shooting myself in the foot if I do that. I'll still have to grin and bear it for the time being.

As for the lagging behind part, I feel like I'm always a step behind my peers. Most people my age seem to have a good idea on what they want in life, are in relationships and whatnot. Whilst I'm still single and I'm not completely lost but still have trouble finding myself.

I guess I'm still having trouble accepting that I'm a work in progress and honestly, my progress is so slow it feels like I'm making none. However I started going back to the gym when I have time (which I struggle to find) and I'm on my way to making friends so there is that silver lining I guess.

I once again apologize if it looks like I'm rambling