This is more of a rant but anyways .....my love life is virtually nonexistent The first girl I had a thing for, told me to end myself, the second girl I had a think for just ghosted me, the third girl again ghosted me, the fourth girl reciprocated but said no (as she was shifting and knew I am a physical person) , the fifth girl, was in a relationship and then distanced herself, sixth girl is in a relationship but a good friend of mine, and right now, there's one more girl who is a gem, I was about to ask her out and she then says she's leaving and she doesn't want any attachments (as she just ended a temporary relationship with her friend though she mentioned the same thing and he got too attached)

(All of the above mentioned was over a span of 5 years...)

I just honestly give up....maybe I don't deserve love...maybe I'm just a shoulder people can cry on and nothing else....maybe I'm just support for a person and doesn't need support...maybe I'm just a NPC in someone else's game...

Side note: And honestly, I might regret this but imma message her saying that I was gonna ask her out because I really miss feeling loved for and any form of intimacy and I really liked her for who she is and how I feel it was pathetic of me to try to ask her out (temporarily) even though she just got out of a temporary one... because I think it's good to be honest..........if you think this just gonna backfire and nothing good is gonna come out of it, please stop me.

I know this seems pathetic but I genuinely am just your average guy....who just wants to be loved .....fuck...sorry for bringing down your moods by this post but just don't know where else to post. Y'all take care of yourselves.