This is an extremely confusing situation and I don’t expect any definite answers but I am 25 and married to a 64 year old man. He is a doctor and medical director and makes a solid living. We recently had a daughter. The reality of the age gap has really been hitting me lately as I sit at home alone taking care of our daughter every day. I think I may have thought being with him was some kind of shortcut out of struggle and unpredictability. I really don’t deal well with change or uncertainty. It might be because of lockdowns mixed with being a new stay at home mom but I feel like my life is over. I have no sexual attraction to him as he is very feminine and in bad shape. I keep asking him to do something about it but ... I think that’s not happening. I keep thinking about this 24 year old guy who’s been chasing me for a few years who I started ignoring as I got engaged to my now husband. He still reaches out to me. I know I shouldn’t be entertaining it but it is so hard not to when the future looks so bleak and I feel so isolated. This guy is fit , a boxing coach , very antithetical to husband. Lately I have been thinking “what if ?”. According to red pill I think he shouldn’t be interested in me but we did used to date and I left him for my husband, so he is still interested I guess even though I have a daughter. Maybe he’s crazy. I don’t know. Anyways. Yikes. Is it too late for me ? Should I just ... I don’t know , hunker down ? I know I’m probably doomed, you don’t need to remind me. Just really need some other perspectives on this.