Game I've been talking with a mod on the forums who's been helping me dismantle my terrible game habits. He calls me a "gamebot" and that's very fitting for me. For a few weeks I've stopped all intentional game and thoughts of "tease her, disqualify her, get her to chase.." In doing so I've been more present and I guess some "natural game" has been shining through. I'm supplementing with Roosh V's Daybang to strengthen my natural abilities.

That very friday an hb7 (that I cold approached) “second thoughts about tomorrow” and was wondering if we could keep meeting at school. I’ve since understood my error of scheduling a date (cliff jumping + swimming) that is too high of an investment for a girl I just met. Despite that, being tired, and a growing feeling of disconnectedness with people, I went out to cold approach.

Approach I went to the area that usually has live music and saw none. Saw hb 5-6 at picnic bench reading a book. Opened her by asking what the book was and she said it was some Christian philosophy. We exchanged a few lines before I said it was nice meeting her as I walked away. She had this look on her face when I said that. It wasn’t until I’d turned away and was 10 steps away that I realized what that look was.

It looked like fear of loss, eyes wide open or a “don’t leave me.” I turned around and went back to the bench where I re-opened by picking up the conversation where we left off (the "bullshitting" from daybang) and took a seat.

We quickly moved past the topic of ages (she's 30 but looked 26) to something interesting. We’re both not from here, so I kept making mullet references and jokes. We both were laughing, and when it came to philosophy (which I enjoy) the conversation was great. Kept circling back to things said in the conversation and kept getting laughs. Even my philosophical hedonism jokes had her going.

At one contextual point, I moved next to her and gave a hug. Kino began, followed by more laughs. Good kino on her arms and a little of her hands, nothing forced. Even when she leaned back and away, I mirrored and stopped my kino. Not forcing anything on her, just paused the kino.

Invited her to play pool at a bar with me. We left and had just a regular / natural (non-gamey, non-spergy) conversation on our short walk there.

Venue change Gave some bar facts upon arrival and Slowly restarted kino. Conversations was kept easy, I won the first game and she started to get a little flirty back. She was a nurse for years, so I kept making sexual references about the nursing occupation and stereotypes.

She’s very quirky and even called me cute. Got a little social proof when a guy from boxing gym recognized me (he worked at bar). Second game of pool was taking a lot longer, and it felt time to start escalating, so I needed to venue change. Before I called it time to leave, I lost from the 8-ball.

Venue change and kiss We got back to the first spot and I led her to the music spot which has giant kids play/hide structures. She walks into one and pauses. I don’t kiss but make some comment about the echo. In the next one I pull her close and ask about a philosophy quote she mentioned earlier. It was one about letting go of the intellectual and feeling free. She kept getting it wrong and I kept saying “not that one, the other one.” After the 3rd or 4th try she got it right and I kissed her. I pulled back and told a small story about last time I was here. Grabbed her hand and ran about 10 steps to show her what I meant. I suggested we head back to her car and listen to music. She briefly tried to grab my hand when we started that way, but I didn't reciprocate.

Don’t wanna get all relationship-esq on her right now. After her leading me in the wrong direction to her car I teased her by saying I couldn’t trust her because it felt like she was tryna kidnap me. It went over well.

Makeout + shit tests Wasted a few minutes trying to get bluetooth to work before macking. Her kisses seemed more closed lip (she’d asked me for gum earlier, could’ve been self conscious about breath). She stopped to hug me, then leaned back and asked if I was a virign. I said “What?! No.” She said she didn’t want to hurt me lol. I pressure flipped by sarcastically asking if she was a virgin because I didn’t want to hurt her. All that with literally no hesitance. Guess I passed.

She leaned back in and there were some moments of a "who's gonna kiss who first." I was in no rush, she came close again and we kissed, (can't remember who kissed first) Give and take. My phone lit up with a text message from the earlier hb7. She literally turns to reads the name “Who’s ___? A girlfriend?”

Me: That’s classified, where is your clearance?

She plays along and gives me a fingerprint lol. Agree and amplify would’ve worked here. Her hamster is spinning, this is good. Between the sexual tension and the cramming car, I knew it was up to me to press things forward.

Her place I ask if she has a sound system and her apartment. She says yeah and I say I wanna check out her book collection while listening to music. “Hop up front dude.” Get to her place and inside I don’t immediately escalate, but I pick her up for fun.

I pick her up while casually looking at the books. She gets down as I ask if she has anything to drink in her fridge, then I playfully picked her up once more and “confessed” that I’m 17. That was a bad and unnecessary move. While holding her she looked at my ID to verify my age. (She thought I could be a minor cause she drove me).

Escalating I carry her to her bedroom and put her down. Kissing for a minute before I take off my shirt and ask if she's tested. According to her, the last time she had sex was with her ex husband a year ago. She also says she's not on birth control. I tell her I don't have condoms and asked if she had any. She asks why she'd keep them, fair point.

I escalate by giving her raspberries while kissing her neck and belly. That makes her laugh. Her shirt comes off first, then the leggings. As I rub her she asks why my jeans are still on. Message received, mine came off. (Noted that a woman shouldn't be ahead of a man in taking off clothes) Now my finger is in her panties and I quickly found her clit. I got 0 LMR.

Her: Wow, you're really direct.

She's also giggling through this part, and eventually tells me I'm pressing too hard. I lighten my touch and she occasionally helps me. She even said she was still dry at one point.

Can't get hard She then gets on top of me and tries to get me hard by grinding. Fuck, it's not working. I get up, she leans up and we kiss more. I guide her hand to my dick and tell her to suck me off. She tries, but the bj is short lived. She tries one more time and comments "wow, you're a massive grower." I tell her to get on her knees for doggy, she frowns and shakes her head no.

Dead erection So she lies down for missionary, my dick touches her vagina but I can't get it in.. I've gone flacid again. I'm jerking it and still can't get hard. She asks "am I beautiful?" Knowing she's feeling self-conscious I respond "you're fuckable. She makes a comment about how I probably watch porn. I say no to reassure her that it's me and that I get like this when tired. She's not my type. Just about 100lb with a cute face.

She flips over and just buries her face in her bed while waiting for me. I tried to jerk an erection, but stroking doesn't even feel pleasurable (nerves as well maybe?) I say it's not gonna happen then we get dressed. As I'm putting on my shoes I ask how she knew about the porn thing. With a sad look she says her ex-husband was addicted.

Dodged a bullet I asked about the birth control thing and she adds she's anti abortion. Wow, great to know. I was about to go in raw. Despite not having a condom, sealing the deal was a priority. Additionally, I wasn't feeling horny (my mental has been off). But I consider myself fortunate to have had an erection issue as to not risk an accidental pregnancy.

I've since learned my lesson, I'll keep condoms on me when I go out now. Technically my dick didn't penetrate her, and I've only had sex twice from that overweight 3. So is my notch count still 1? I feel like I have unfinished business with her.

Driving back to my car she told me her story. She used to be a feminist, but when she found God (during her marriage) her atheistic husband divorced her and atheistic/secular family cut contact. I hugged and kissed her goodbye. She said she had a wonderful time and that I uplifted her heart.

After I feel good about myself overall from this and am ready to plate her. It didn't occur to me to text her that night, so I was worried I gave off ONS vibes. She reached out a couple days later to text me a link to a young adult bible study thing followed by a lengthy message. The message is half religious praise and half (ASD?). She tells how she stumbled due to my "flirty behavior and physical attractiveness." You get the just.

I'm happy she's feeling better. I doubt I'd want part in something that leaves one with persisting guilt afterwards. I enjoyed her company but I just wanted to plate her. I'll probably see her again and feel things out.

UPDATE: She wants nothing to do with me lol.

Thanks for celebrating with me by reading this. I promise future FR's will be shorter. This one stuck out because it's my first, so my mind is hanging onto the details.