If you read my previous posts, you will appreciate I've been in a bit of a perilous situation as are most who find this place. I've went rambo, had some initial success and since then the pendulum has been swinging back and forth.

It constantly feels like two steps back and one forward, always pissing against the wind..... But although the shit tests keep coming, I feel like they are becoming less frequent and are not as intense as before.

One thing I've struggled to come to terms with is frame - how to define it and how to hold it. Today for the first time ever I felt like I really detached myself from reality and nothing could influence my presence. The only way I could describe this feeling was as if I was inside a bubble filled with lightning - like blanka from street fighter in full charge.

So from now on I'm going to be inside my lighting filled bubble.... if that thought helps me to keep frame, then so be it.

All I know is my life has improved drastically over the past few months, as has my wife and kids.

Blanka