I've never dipped in my own ethnicity before, but long story short, met this girl while out, usually never approached for personal reasons, she turns out super fun. We hang, we bang, I've added her to the rotation.

Usually easy for me to not get attached with girls because I know there is zero future with them. No matter how fun or bomb they are, culture difference is big. But I can't use that excuse anymore. I've been chatting with her more now due to the quarantine and the things I talk with her, I can't replicate with my other plates. I even speak in my own language more now.

I don't really know what to do to be honest. And it actually made me think of a question, what exactly is the end goal of trp? I don't need her, but I like the fun we have. I could block her on all contacts tmr and move on with my life because I don't depend on anyone or anything for my own happiness anymore. I love myself the minute I wake up to the minute I go to sleep.