I eat like shit, I waste so much time on video games and YouTube, I’m not studying when I should be and constantly feel guilt and anxiety over my upcoming exams.

I look on the subreddits getmotivated and getdisciplined as well as YouTube videos on procrastination etc.. and I feel a temporary feeling of relief yet I’m doing is procrastinating and all I end up doing is nothing

My exam is in over 20 days. I feel guilt every time I procrastinate and every night when I get to bed (knowing I did next to no studying etc.). I wish it was as easy as just flipping on the willpower switch and just doing it.

Also I figured that one true way I could raise my self esteem and confidence (especially with summer approaching for me) was to workout and eat healthy. Yet I constantly find myself giving up halfway through my diets etc and just binge eating.

I really do hate my life rn, how I’m so lazy and just do the same thing everyday. I don’t want to regret doing shit on my exams. I have a bit over 20 days to get shit sorted. I’m probably just going to procrastinate again. Please I need advice. Fucking swear at me, give me the raw shit, whatever it takes to give me a slap in the face to wake myself the fuck up and just do what I NEED to do :( (I know what I need to do but I just DONT do it)