I'm going through a brutal dry spell of almost 5 years now. So recently I decided to do something about it and get into PUA. I've read some theory and said fuck it, I'm goinging out with my friends and approach some girls.

I'm a shy guy when it comes to girls but in the past few weeks I managed to approach quite some and have decent results. I'd say that opening works quite well but I fail at escalating.

I just came back from a party and got rejected. I did not expect that the rejection would actually hurt. I went in with my buddies and we just talked at first, having fun and getting some drinks.. When the party really got started I chatted up some random dudes to get myself warmed up. Afterwards I decided to approach some girls without any expectations (read: expecting to get rejected). A friend of mine pointed out that a handsome blonde had something funny with her hair. So a bit later I crossed this girl:

Me: Hey you have XY going on with your hair

HB: Maybe, why are you saying this?

Me: No reason

HB: Please go away now

Me: Gladly! ¨walks away

The rejection made me feel good. I expected to get rejected. I approached a second girl with something similar and also got rejected. Not caring one bit made me feel good and warmed up.

A bit later I saw 2 beautiful blondes and decided to approach them from the side. This time I hoped to work on my escalation.

Me: Can I ask you girls something?

Girl: Yeah sure (she looked neither attracted not disinterested)

Me: I'm thinking of growing a beard, do you think it'll suit me?

Girl: OMG Seriously? Makes a go away gesture with her hand

Me: ... Walks away

This made me feel really, really crappy. I've been rejected after some small talk before, with the girl clearly giving me IOD's, but never this harshly. I'm quite goodlooking so that's not an issue. It was an indirect opener, so I did not see this coming.

I know that this will end up making me stronger, I'll realize in a few days that getting rejected hasn't affected my life one bit. But dang it hurts.

I went out to improve my game, working on escalation, but I ended up leaving defeated. At this moment I just don't feel like all this hassle to get a girl is worth it, I'm seriously considering visiting a hooker every now and then so I don't have to deal with these entitled bitches.

Anyway, thanks for reading this rant.